#5 (I Am Not Me)
I AM NOT ME However hard may someone try to Change me, transform me, rejig me, I had swore upon an oath I had made since nonage, That I would never see myself in alien shoes, And never imitate a person built on his own. Could it be possible that I have lied, For I have lost my reflection in the mirror that I face now and then? I can’t seem to find myself, even in the deep water Where I appear to have lost my being Even worse is the fact that I am not me I have betrayed my trust, and am resentful About the unaware being that I desperately mimicked. Where am I? Not in the shadows that lurked about. Where am I? I have lost my dear, dear entity. I swore, and I had mutinied against Myself, for no sound and sane reason. I am not what I used to be, and not what I Desired to be. What a mess I have made. The showers of sorrow that rain upon me every Now and then are now acquainted with an image I loathe, I detest, even to this day. - F. Jul